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08:43 am - erg...many, many muddy hands

muddy hands

whenever i get an image like this, that i crop:

muddy hands (2)

and then crop again,

muddy hands (3)

it's obvious that i don't have a perfect deal. well, I WANT A PERFECT DEAL. in fact, whenever i go out on a shoot, that is exactly what i'm looking for. i want something perfect -something that achieves its own sort of escape velocity. i am not a great lover of images that require neighbors for context. or of "small" pictures. of course, i have thousands of "small" gems: i have rubies and saphires and emeralds by the dozens. and i stash them in folders on my desktop. sometimes i just throw them out. why? because they're not diamonds.

a month ago when i got the acceptance from calyx, one of the images they chose was an image i have always loved, but don't consider "perfect". it's the image of the one-eyed woman holding the crow. they chose that image OVER one i think is perfect. it got me to thinking of this:

my perfect isn't your perfect.

small things are perfect in their own way; there is amazingness in non-perfection.

i tend to approach my entire life way i approach my artwork. i don't really allow for imperfection. i don't really allow for things like vacations. i want things done correctly right NOW...etc. in my race for the the perfect thing, i miss or squander piles of experiences that add depth and substance to life.

about the image i posted here, what i like about it is the light and the gesture. it doesn't look like a photo to me, but more like a painting. like a modern rendition of a caravaggio...at least in the treatment of the light relations.

the magic moment when we become aware that there is more life lived than left.

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Date:September 8th, 2006 04:55 pm (UTC)

glad you were born- happy day

yes, that is a painting like photo
lovely light and the third crop does it for me

faceted stones and cracked mirrors...a buddhist monk in exile from tibet once told me to love the cracks, "they are perfect" he said...I believed him and the world changed around me like Alices wonderful world.

I love rubies...and sometimes a ruby or emerald
or amethyst
or garnet (yummmm, no diamond can quench the hunger for garnet)
is what is NEEDED wanted, loved and desired in all it's perfection...
love your awareness of all that here
must be the wisdom of your age!
Yaye 50! you made it!
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Date:September 8th, 2006 05:05 pm (UTC)

Re: glad you were born- happy day

thanks so much for your words! -i appreciate your vote on which crop. the third one was my first instinct. then i started flopping around.

interesting what the buddhist monk told you about cracks. when i was younger (still working in clay) i did a series of "crack studies" where i implanted objects into the clay before firing to see how the clay would crack. i loved the cracks. they were visually interesting and meaningful somehow.

i love rubies too.
and turquoises. if i lived life by my diamond standard, i might have to throw my rubies and turquoises out.
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Date:September 8th, 2006 06:09 pm (UTC)

Re: glad you were born- happy day

It's a tough decision but I think the third crop is also my favorite. Your model is beautiful and I like the way her face looks, partly in shadow. When I look at this -- and at the photos on your website -- I get an urge to listen to This Mortal Coil. It evokes the same sort of feeling.

Not sure if I am making sense of making a fool of myself but that's the best way I know of (at the moment, at least) to put it.
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Date:September 8th, 2006 06:27 pm (UTC)

Re: glad you were born- happy day

hey, jeff!
i'm going with the third one. it was my first instinct and it seems like most people's favorite.

you are NOT making a fool of yourself. i know "this mortal coil's" music. and i completely agree with what you're saying here.

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Date:September 8th, 2006 06:45 pm (UTC)

Re: glad you were born- happy day

You mean I actually know what I'm talking about? Amazing! ;-)

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