September 14th, 2006
first, the fun stuff -another image from the shoot with river
and now, the life-stuff:
i've been working pretty hard on the dammasch show in november. i'm making huge image files for the new printer, and on tuesday, i had a get together in my back yard to stuff a bunch of little sewn forms i made out of the curtains gathered from dammasch. i had a great time with those who came and also really appreciated the help. i will probably have another "come and help me stuff it" party in october; i hope it's as much fun as this one was.
i woke up today and knew i was going to cancel my april show if i don't get the grant. i see it this way:
1. i spent 10 years busting my ass making installations, have received maybe 5 good sized reviews (not a ton, but enough) and a whole bunch of silly one-paragraph deals. meaning: i have a proven track record of doing well, following through, etc.
2. i have never made a penny on any of my installations.
3. i'm 50. meaning: i'm tool old to be PAYING TO WORK.
4. the dammasch project scheduled for april will cost a butt-load and NOT BE MARKETABLE. it is intellectual property/sociopolitical commentary, as opposed to being "beautiful" artwork fitting for display behind someone's couch.
5. i just got another show in may at guardino gallery. THAT will also cost both time and money and promises some return. i will be showing with a glass artist named andy paiko. look how kewl his stuff is:
this is a "spine jar". kinda works with my images as i have bones in a number of them. he's also created functional measuring devices, all out of glass. a seismograph, for example, and a balance.
anyhoo...thoughts before beginning work...
Current Mood: busy
Yeah, paying to work totally sucks. I don't blame you for not wanting to do it anymore.
I like the new image of Rober and I like the spine jar, too!
I meant River. How the hell did I type Rober? I really need to proofread before I hit send. Sorry about that.
|Date:||September 14th, 2006 04:31 pm (UTC)|| |
1. me too
2. me too
3. I'm a 40 yr. old single mom
4. I'm editing the documentation of the womens spiritual retreat that i captured with 2 shitty cameras for free today - for free...cause I volunteered and it could lead to work that pays - really it could
5. i can so relate to all of this
and hope we bith learn to ask for money for our work more often than not.
i'm askin'! i'm askin'!
just waiting for the regional arts and culture council to see that my work has value and should be funded.
the other stuff sells...sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. it's all good.
i just hope you get that grant....
|Date:||September 14th, 2006 07:56 pm (UTC)|| |
Paying to work is always so wrong! But you do beautiful things, this means a lot, even if it's not material I think it's rewarding :)
i agree. sometimes it's just hard to keep going when you have to go in debt.
Compared to so many of your friends here I am so far removed from the world of art as to be completely ignorant of its inner workings so all I can say is I like this River pic VERY much and hope you get the grant.
the inner workings of the artworld are, actually, a little more complex than one might think. i operate within two systems: not-for-profits & universities, and market-oriented galleries. they do different things. i'm very, very tired of the former. lots and lots of work. you go in debt. and there's little return.
i have to think more about my money. i'm 50. no partner. no savings. hmmm...can you see trouble coming? i can.
Not having a pension of any sort to look forward to myself...not even social security since I never lived in the US long enough to work for a long enough time...I can empathize.
I hope it all works our for you!
|Date:||September 14th, 2006 09:44 pm (UTC)|| |
ah, Rapunzel with a attitude.
(understandable in that situation)
if i ever have an inkling what it takes
to make things livable
i will let you know
the gallery sounds promising,
the glass is unique & lovely, the gallery
looks like they have something working.
representation maybe? somewhere?
er, the last couple of images . . .
i can’t quite figure it out, but they don’t seem
to have that ‘directness’ (or something) i usually
see in your work. they are not giving me the
visceral feel i usually get from your stuff . . .
ok, just ignore me, it’s probably my own distractions
but i thought i would mention it. you would do the
same for me.
well, perhaps unbeknownst to you, YOUR SILENCE tells me how you feel about these images. you know, you don't have to like everything i make, jim. i don't know about the thing you said here, "visceral feel" -not all my work has a visceral edge. AAAAAND, this shoot was one i did for my mom. she has a sweet-piece that i kinda hate, but also kinda like at the same time. it's this one:
she requested a new work with same sort of vibe. i told her i'd do an eve-thing for her because she's christian and i thought she'd like that. that's how i popped out with the "redeeming eve" image -one of the silver gelatin prints i posted first.
i like these images. i also think they go with a lot of what i'm doing. they add another element...or something. and actually, the one with the single muddy hand in the foreground i really love.
so. i guess we'll just have to agree to disagree on some things. you know, there's times when i'm silent, too.
thanks for chiming in. i feel a little wacky when i don't hear from emmy lou.
|Date:||September 15th, 2006 02:44 pm (UTC)|| |
don’t take my silence for anything more than that. on occasion i do get quiet
and overly introspective once in a while. there are also times that it is
difficult to frame the words that articulate the thoughts and feelings
properly. even times that there are no appropriate words in the lexicon.
i try not to make comments that don’t have substance, except for those
times that call for a little silliness. (-:
and then there is that personal baggage we bring along when we look,
not to mention those times of distraction. i may not see things today
that i will see tomorrow.
i do like that image your mum likes, it has a very ‘nurturing’ feel to it.
i notices that second ‘eve’ piece hasn’t been censored yet. kewl.
(that one is sort of growing on me, sometimes i have to go back to
an image several times before i understand how i feel about it . . . weird.)
how boring if we agreed on everything. like vindaloo without the curry. (-;
OMG! you're asking me to not draw conclusions? LOLOL!!! you gotta know me a little better than THAT!!
you don't always have to have a substantive thing to add...and to tell ya the truth, I LOVE YOUR SILLINESS. you can't see me on this side of the universe chuckling!
i also like the second eve image...i printed a good copy of it last night. and i hope my mom likes it, too, because i think i may have destroyed the one i think she will like the best.
so you know, people say that life is more interesting because we're different. i sometimes wonder if the EASE of agreement would outweigh the uncomfortable-ness of disagreement. prolly not. although people also say that i wouldn't love the summer so much without the context of winter. that's silly...i just don't believe that. it's a platitude that helps me survive the winter.
i'm sure somebody's already said this already(i'm too lazy to read through the comments right now), but that's so lame your artistic output has to be somewhat dictated by what's marketable. >sigh< BUT...that glass stuff looks so cool! that will be a fun show. anyway...i like that image of river. the contrast seems a little off, but that might be due to my sleepiness or inferior screen technology. :)
i think the contrast is gonna stay off. i do like the image. but i LIKE it, i don't love it.
i made, like, fucking FIFTY of these damn images. i burnt and dodged and trades filters, blah blah blah...this was the best print i got. it does look a little better in person. not so hot in the highlights. but it still isn't quite perfect.
kewl model, tho, Huh?
yeah, she's really great. what a good find!