September 14th, 2006
first, the fun stuff -another image from the shoot with river
and now, the life-stuff:
i've been working pretty hard on the dammasch show in november. i'm making huge image files for the new printer, and on tuesday, i had a get together in my back yard to stuff a bunch of little sewn forms i made out of the curtains gathered from dammasch. i had a great time with those who came and also really appreciated the help. i will probably have another "come and help me stuff it" party in october; i hope it's as much fun as this one was.
i woke up today and knew i was going to cancel my april show if i don't get the grant. i see it this way:
1. i spent 10 years busting my ass making installations, have received maybe 5 good sized reviews (not a ton, but enough) and a whole bunch of silly one-paragraph deals. meaning: i have a proven track record of doing well, following through, etc.
2. i have never made a penny on any of my installations.
3. i'm 50. meaning: i'm tool old to be PAYING TO WORK.
4. the dammasch project scheduled for april will cost a butt-load and NOT BE MARKETABLE. it is intellectual property/sociopolitical commentary, as opposed to being "beautiful" artwork fitting for display behind someone's couch.
5. i just got another show in may at guardino gallery. THAT will also cost both time and money and promises some return. i will be showing with a glass artist named andy paiko. look how kewl his stuff is:
this is a "spine jar". kinda works with my images as i have bones in a number of them. he's also created functional measuring devices, all out of glass. a seismograph, for example, and a balance.
anyhoo...thoughts before beginning work...
Current Mood: busy
Compared to so many of your friends here I am so far removed from the world of art as to be completely ignorant of its inner workings so all I can say is I like this River pic VERY much and hope you get the grant.
the inner workings of the artworld are, actually, a little more complex than one might think. i operate within two systems: not-for-profits & universities, and market-oriented galleries. they do different things. i'm very, very tired of the former. lots and lots of work. you go in debt. and there's little return.
i have to think more about my money. i'm 50. no partner. no savings. hmmm...can you see trouble coming? i can.
Not having a pension of any sort to look forward to myself...not even social security since I never lived in the US long enough to work for a long enough time...I can empathize.
I hope it all works our for you!