September 14th, 2006
first, the fun stuff -another image from the shoot with river
and now, the life-stuff:
i've been working pretty hard on the dammasch show in november. i'm making huge image files for the new printer, and on tuesday, i had a get together in my back yard to stuff a bunch of little sewn forms i made out of the curtains gathered from dammasch. i had a great time with those who came and also really appreciated the help. i will probably have another "come and help me stuff it" party in october; i hope it's as much fun as this one was.
i woke up today and knew i was going to cancel my april show if i don't get the grant. i see it this way:
1. i spent 10 years busting my ass making installations, have received maybe 5 good sized reviews (not a ton, but enough) and a whole bunch of silly one-paragraph deals. meaning: i have a proven track record of doing well, following through, etc.
2. i have never made a penny on any of my installations.
3. i'm 50. meaning: i'm tool old to be PAYING TO WORK.
4. the dammasch project scheduled for april will cost a butt-load and NOT BE MARKETABLE. it is intellectual property/sociopolitical commentary, as opposed to being "beautiful" artwork fitting for display behind someone's couch.
5. i just got another show in may at guardino gallery. THAT will also cost both time and money and promises some return. i will be showing with a glass artist named andy paiko. look how kewl his stuff is:
this is a "spine jar". kinda works with my images as i have bones in a number of them. he's also created functional measuring devices, all out of glass. a seismograph, for example, and a balance.
anyhoo...thoughts before beginning work...
Current Mood: busy
well, perhaps unbeknownst to you, YOUR SILENCE tells me how you feel about these images. you know, you don't have to like everything i make, jim. i don't know about the thing you said here, "visceral feel" -not all my work has a visceral edge. AAAAAND, this shoot was one i did for my mom. she has a sweet-piece that i kinda hate, but also kinda like at the same time. it's this one:
she requested a new work with same sort of vibe. i told her i'd do an eve-thing for her because she's christian and i thought she'd like that. that's how i popped out with the "redeeming eve" image -one of the silver gelatin prints i posted first.
i like these images. i also think they go with a lot of what i'm doing. they add another element...or something. and actually, the one with the single muddy hand in the foreground i really love.
so. i guess we'll just have to agree to disagree on some things. you know, there's times when i'm silent, too.
thanks for chiming in. i feel a little wacky when i don't hear from emmy lou.
|Date:||September 15th, 2006 02:44 pm (UTC)|| |
don’t take my silence for anything more than that. on occasion i do get quiet
and overly introspective once in a while. there are also times that it is
difficult to frame the words that articulate the thoughts and feelings
properly. even times that there are no appropriate words in the lexicon.
i try not to make comments that don’t have substance, except for those
times that call for a little silliness. (-:
and then there is that personal baggage we bring along when we look,
not to mention those times of distraction. i may not see things today
that i will see tomorrow.
i do like that image your mum likes, it has a very ‘nurturing’ feel to it.
i notices that second ‘eve’ piece hasn’t been censored yet. kewl.
(that one is sort of growing on me, sometimes i have to go back to
an image several times before i understand how i feel about it . . . weird.)
how boring if we agreed on everything. like vindaloo without the curry. (-;
OMG! you're asking me to not draw conclusions? LOLOL!!! you gotta know me a little better than THAT!!
you don't always have to have a substantive thing to add...and to tell ya the truth, I LOVE YOUR SILLINESS. you can't see me on this side of the universe chuckling!
i also like the second eve image...i printed a good copy of it last night. and i hope my mom likes it, too, because i think i may have destroyed the one i think she will like the best.
so you know, people say that life is more interesting because we're different. i sometimes wonder if the EASE of agreement would outweigh the uncomfortable-ness of disagreement. prolly not. although people also say that i wouldn't love the summer so much without the context of winter. that's silly...i just don't believe that. it's a platitude that helps me survive the winter.